Thursday, August 30, 2012

Working for Bacation

I had always said I would be ready to go back to work in September. And now it is here. After all those long hard afternoons, watching the clock because I have a fussy baby and a sore back. After all those sunny mornings walking baby & Elsa around the corner and over the bridge. It wasn't the wildest summer I have ever had off. I think I had exactly two hangovers the entire time. I feel healthy, despite what the scale says. Clean living can be boring. But it was a great summer all the less, and I'm glad I took off so much time.

I know it will eventually feel good to get back to work, and I am entertaining the opportunity to work part time as well. Freelancing pays well enough that it will be sufficient even if its only 20 hours a week or so. Not saving for a house next year sufficient, but more like, I am bringing in some good money after not having worked for 5 months sufficient. Enough to justify the nanny. Which brings me to the other issues that are coming to mind now when I think about work:

* The nanny, indeed. This has to be worked out once I figure out my start date, my hours, or days if its part time. There's no point in setting things down in stone now without more details. Who knows if I will even work in September after all? But I'm talking to people so chances are, it will be sometime soon. We have a friend who is interested, who has another family who wants to nanny share, but its not in a neighborhood I like. If the price is the same, might it be just as well to hire a professional who can come to my home? This will all be worked out when the time is right I suppose.

*Clothes. Oh how I used to love to be a bit fashionable! In my alternative 90s sort of take on it. Black boots, slim skirts, chunky silver earrings. But now none of my cute clothes fit so I guess I will be back to a pregnancy sort of wardrobe of leggings and tunics until all that walking to work pays off. Still, it sucks to work in advertising and not dress exactly how you would like to. There's not much else that's interesting - some days - than what your girlfriends at work are wearing, planning to wear, found online, or bought at lunchtime.

*Attention span. As I mentioned before, I don't feel as if I'm not as smart or sharp as I was before baby, or pregnancy. But there is a strange phenomenon going on. Sometimes motoboy or a friend will be telling a story and suddenly I will notice that 10 seconds or so have passed and I stopped listening completely. I have to try to hit rewind in my head or just listen more intently to catch up, nodding away. What if this happens in a meeting when someone is telling me a key piece of information? Must remember to always be taking notes. And to maybe up my tea time intervals.

*Baby withdrawal. I remember women coming back to work and being asked if it was hard to leave their babies at home and these same women just bursting into tears. Granted, these were account management types (think pretty Lincoln Park girls with business degrees) who came back after 6 weeks or 3 months. While I haven't left baby for more than 7 hours, I'm hoping it will be a little easier for me, knowing how far along she is. It's not like having to say goodbye to a helpless newborn who only drinks breastmilk. My bebe looooves her some Target formula. And boobies too. So I might only have to pump my meager amount (I think I get 2-3 ounces TOPS, at a go) maybe once in the middle of the day. But I am more worried about the emotional attachment. Not worried enough that I think I want to stay home until she is four, because well hello DOLLAS. Mama likes to make dem DOLLAS.

And the awesome thing about being a freelancer is that I have no idea when and if and how this is all going to work out. In the meantime, back to maternity leave. Daddy should be home in T minus 2.5 hours and then its happy hour and mama's night out. And the weekend for the family! I deserve it this week. It was uneventful and tiring for some reason. But oh so darling at the same time.

E

Monday, August 20, 2012

Leaps and Bounds


Since I'm still playing the role of a SAHM (that's 50's housewife for you not into acronyms), I can only speak baby baby baby. So let me tell you what baby has done since I last checked in:

*Rolling to her side, almost over all the way (will go and even prep herself for landing if you gently lead her by the arm)
*Leans her head forward to sit up
*Can tripod herself in a sitting position with some help
*Took her first airplane trip to VA to see her grandparents and great grandparents

Things Mama has done:
*Gone out for cocktails (at least 2-3 times)
*Had a house party in which baby stayed up all night (oh well)
*Started a new writing project (TV script, possibly)
*Looked around for freelance work (not in a panic)

And I actually do have a meeting Wednesday to talk to some people at an agency that is new to me (one that Motoboy used to work at, actually) about some part time freelance work. Which is quite compelling to me. Might be a nice way to ease myself back into it until the end of the year. IF they can pay my day rate. If its much less than that, the price won't be worth the nanny rates in Chicago. And its not like I like working that much. But I do need to do something. Am bored, I (guiltily) have to admit.

The smartest thing I have done, since baby was big enough for it to make sense, was to get a babysitter once a week, just for three hours. I can survive any kind of week if I know that I can get a break to run some errands, stop for a coffee, or just go write for a few hours. The babysitters - two - I have used are great and I don't have to worry about my little punkin at all. Best $40 you can spend.

Now finding a nanny for when I go back to work might be a whole different story. If my friend can't nanny or has another work conflict I will have to interview strangers. So many stories of lazy nannies being spotted at the park. Just this morning I saw one getting a toddler out of a stroller with one hand because she was on the phone with her other. The toddler managed to swing out of it while being held up with one arm, but I have a feeling a mom wouldn't do that. It's a scary thing to leave your kids with people who just might not think they are the most amazing creatures that were ever born. And impossible to know how the day really will go. Trust is all you have, or not?

But we will cross that bridge when someone actually offers me some work, and tells me when it will start. In the meantime, how about a nice roast for dinner honey? More scotch? Wait. Those 50s housewives weren't spending their own money either. Modern life is still hard, plus, expensive.

E

*pic is of Elizabeth "Betty" Robinson, winner of the first Olympic 100m for women for USA.