Where is My Mind?

Things I've learned in the past month:

*Even if you think you're tired, there's an extra fuel tank in there ready to go. Where was that when I was in Vegas?

*Whatever trick used yesterday to calm the baby, may or may not work today. Its 85% likely that it will not work twice in a row. But keep it in mind because you will need it tomorrow.
 -such tricks include, nursing, clean diaper, bouncing in Bjorn, wrapping in Moby blanket, swinging in car seat, going for a walk, listening to heavy metal (dad), listening to indie rock (mom). Are there any I missed that don't involve pharmaceuticals?
*You can stay up all night without the help of alcohol or other stimulants. It's super weird.
*Similarly you can find yourself in your front room at 5am, rocking a baby in a chair with the vacuum on. That one spot near the front door is really clean.

Dealing with diaper rash, and latching on, and researching vaccinations, and... who am I?

Being a new mom can also feel like freshman year of college. You feel accomplished in getting as far as you have, but there's still going to be some harsh and embarrassing (sometimes public) lessons to be learned. Like trying to breastfeed a hot and bothered 3 week old in the neighborhood square. On a windy day. Read: unhappy screaming baby and fluttering coverup. We had to give up and abandon our mission. No drug store trip for me (such daily goals!).

And after all this, the recent Time magazine cover story, calling those that co-sleep and breastfeed and use cloth diapers part of some sort of hippie Attachment Parenting movement makes me feel well, like a hippy. In a good way. I thought this was what a lot of urban moms did? If they can/want to. So I'm overachieving, not failing, all right!

I have to admit, I look at the bed during the day and it does not look like a good time. We've had some rough nights lately, if you can call nonexistent sleeping at night that. I might as well take her to an all night double feature and start putting her to bed about 5am at this rate. I'm told it will get better. I need a youtube video telling me such.

But she's so cute. So cute! I will hang on. And keep learning.

E